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Alone with your tweezers and your handkerchief


New Journal Phoenix_Egg
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clubgirl4u
I don't know if my old friends are still around and wondered hey whatever the hell happened to me but yes I am still alive.  I have been working and I have moved and a lot of nothing has been going on.  I have come to the point where I feel that I need to express my feelings in my journal again.  I have a new journal so please add me as a friend if you want: http://phoenix-egg.livejournal.com/

For those who have stated that they missed me or just simply stated yes whatever the hell happened to you, I want to thank you for caring about me.  Huggs <3

P.S.  I have a myspace too if anyone has gone there as well if you would like to add me: http://www.myspace.com/transplantedcitygirl

I thought I was much freakier than this, I demand a recount :-P
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Homeward Bound
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Well thought I would update before I go to bed. Went to the Employment office yesterday and applied for the job in Adulusia. I didn't have time to look through the other jobs as much as I would like but I updated my files and got the web address again because I somehow lost my first copy. They should be contacting me if any jobs come in that match my skills now. Went off my diet yesterday but only for the day. Me and mom whet to the Mexican resteraunt for lunch and it was ssoooooo good. lol But I am back on track today starting with my fruit day today. Today has been a lot harder than last Monday. I think my body thought ok we will give her a week and she'll give up and now that I am keeping up with it, it's starting to rebel. I am craving worse this week than I was last week. But tomorrow is vegetable day and therefore it should be easier.

My new mattresses are very comfortable ;). Spent most of today answering emails, I had like 70 to go through and then most of this night has been spent on fulfilling icon request. I am pretty much caught up and only have like 4 request to go through. But the most exciting thing of all is the fact that I might be going up to Michigan next month for two weeks (maybe longer). Mom is going up for the court date (my brothers hearing to get custody or better visitation rights for his son) and asked if I would watch the animals and I asked her if it would be ok if I came up with the animals. She thought about it and has pretty much said yes. She is still going to fly because it will be too hard on her to drive. So I will be making the two day trip up there probably the last week of this month or the first week of next month depending on when the court date is. It's going to be kinda cool just me driving the open highway for two days, she is even going to call ahead and book a motel for me for the first night :). I can't express how happy I am, I contacted some of my friends and I think I will be able to get together with them which is the main reason for my happiness. Well I must head off to bed before the sun rises :-P

I want you to know got a friend that's true...Just like a shelter, in a time of storm....
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clubgirl4u
I love this song, it was the boi that introduced me to the Housemartins and I have been listening to some of my old stuff today and this one makes me cry every time.

Housemartins
London 0 Hull 4
I'll Be Your Shelter (Just Like a Shelter)

In times when you're troubled
Seems more than you can affoard
And you feel, you feel you need a friend
Someone to share the load

And when your skies grow cloudy
I want you to know got a friend that's true
Just like a shelter, in a time of storm
I'll see you through, that's what I'll do

When your dreams are scattered
Just like the wind blown sand
And you feel, you feel you need a friend
I'll be there, reach out your hand

And when the tempest is raging
I want you to know got a friend that's true
Just like a shelter, in a time of storm
I'll see you through, that's what I'll do

I'll see you through your bad times
I'll see you through your fears
I'll see you through your hang ups
Honey I'll dry all your tears

And when the tempest is raging
I want you to know got a friend that's true
Just like a shelter, in a time of storm
I'll see you through, that's what I'll do

I will see you through, I will see you through
I will see you through, I will see you through

When my load got heavy, did you see me through
When my load got to hard to bear, did you see me through
What would you do, what would you do
What would you do, what would you do

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clubgirl4u
Spent most of yesterday cleaning the house and didn't get online much, and when I did I mostly just spent my time creating yet another new background. I wanted to do a theme to Annie Lennox's Pavement Cracks but I couldn't find the lyrics anywhere, guess I will have to wait until the album comes out next month.

Anyway the reason we had to do a lot of cleaning was because my mom ordered like $2000 worth of new furniture and they delivered it this morning. We now have a new Burgundy couch with reclining ends and a big wooden coffee table that has baskets for drawers that pull out (it's actually very pretty). Mom got a new Serta mattress for her bed and she also bought a set of mattresses for my room. She also bought a day bed for the house next door and a hollywood frame for her old set of mattresses because they are still in excellent condition she just thought they were uncomfortable. I told her when I move I get the frame and the mattresses (hell it's a queen size) ;) and she said ok.

Another reason for the new furniture and beds is that my sister Kim is coming to visit for two weeks next week and my dad is coming down to visit for one week at the same time. I am not sure if I am giving up my bed and sleeping in the house next door or if Kim and her husband are. It will most likely be me. The reason I am not already over there is because it has it's own separate electric bill and it will cost too much for me to run the air conditioner over there. I am soo excited to see my little niece for the first time, I can't wait :).

Well I have to go take a shower and get ready to go to the Alabama Employment Office at around noon. My mom is going into town for another tanning session and I am going to go over there while she is in the tanning salon. I know for certain that I want the one application for the job in Andalusia, and I am going to look through the books to see if they have any more positions that I might be interested in. Right now I don't see a point to getting a job here because it's almost time to go back to Michigan but then again I do need to save as much money as I can if I am going to move out and accomplish what I want to accomplish.

Oh yes and I almost forgot my total loss for the week is 8 pounds, very happy about that :). I am starting week two and today is fruit day and in my opinion the hardest day.

living is so very close to dying
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There are days when I can deal and days when I can't. I guess the biggest problem that I have is that I do still care about the boi. I have no idea what's going on with him right now but as I can see from his latest entry he really does need somebody right now. Even when he is being weird towards me I still care about him so I tried contacting him but he hasn't replied to any of my messages. I still worry about him, for he will always be my Lestat. And I kinda thought about that today how Gabrielle and Lestat were with each other. Even though they suffered for different reasons they suffered in silence next to one another. That's the way it is with us we rarely tell each other about the hurt, that is until we have private moments such as going out and having car cocktails or those rare occasions when we do get to have midnight talks. But mostly there is this silent understanding.

I guess I will always be his friend and I am always going to worry about him. It doesn't bother me that he has other girls as friends or even the fact that he lives with one now. What does bother me is the fact that he seems to think that he can't have more than one good friend, and maybe one day he will realize that he can. So I leave our friendship in his hands, in another words I will be here when he needs me and even though my goals have somewhat remained the same they still have kept him in mind, if he ever needs someplace to go I will be there. I am applying for a job tomorrow and I found some excellent places in Chicago that are cheap I even signed up to get listings for Troy, MI because they have a bus system there. If I can get a temp job and a place I will move to Troy. I think it's $30 bucks for an unlimited bus pas and I can bus it to where I want to go :). Anyway those are my two choices that is of course after I have saved some money up to move again.

I am trying to be positive though there are times when I cry because I worry that I have lost him as a friend but I will just have to accept the way things are right now and maybe they will be different down the line. Wander the earth Lestat and know that Gabrielle will always be your mother or was that daughter ;) *smiles*

Who would think this of me *looks all innocent* :-P
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innocent bitch



You Are An Innocent Bitch!


Like most chicks, you act like you're innocent.

But to get what you want, you'll be a total bitch...

And never get caught!



What Kind of Bitch Are *You*?

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clubgirl4u
Yesterday was good and bad. The bad part was that the past hit me in the face and made me cry :-P. The good part was that I got two job leads. One of my dads friends came over here the other day and told me about a couple of computer jobs that about 30 minutes away and he also said he would grab me the newspaper from the next town over since they are more industrialized and will have more job opportunities. My mom said she didn't mind driving me, so keep you fingers crossed that these leads actually lead to something :). I called on Friday about the one lead and I have to go through the Andalusia Employment Office. I called them and they said I could go down to the Brewton Employment Office and request the application faxed over. I was going to do that yesterday, I took my shower, did my hair, did my makeup, but my mom didn't come home until like 4 yesterday from her excursions so I am going to go on Monday :)

I went to sleep at like 8 last night due to this overwhelming sadness that tried to kick my ass and I woke up at 1:30 talked to lorele for a little bit. He is also fighting with his own demons right now so heres to hoping that we can both triumph over them. Went back to sleep at 6 this morning thinking I would only sleep for a few hours but I slept until 11:30 this morning.

Another good thing that happened yesterday was that I convinced my mom to buy me two suits to go on interviews with. I am very excited since most of my clothes don't look appropriate for a first interview. I told her I would pay her back once I got a job.
Here is what I boughtCollapse )

Now I just have to get my hair cut and I will knock em dead on the interview *crosses fingers* I have been following the diet and so far so good. I haven't weighed myself again because I think I am just going to weight in once a week so I don't get freaked out if I don't loose for that day :). The important part is that I am loosing. Now I need to add exercise into my routine, maybe some Tai Bo or a little bit of Richard Simmons (yeah I know he is corny but the exercises are fun :-P).

Last night I was playing around with brushes and things in PhotoShop and I came up with this icon which I am really liking right now :)

isn't it cute ;)

Had a Bad Day Again
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clubgirl4u
Had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

She spilled her coffee, broke her shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me off and puts me on

And had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
Left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

No...

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me off and puts me on

Oh and had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day...again"

She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day..."

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Just so most of you are not worrying about me, I am in no way starving myself :) I have been looking it up on the net because apperently it's also called the Sacred Heart 7 Day Diet and there are apparently different versions of the diet. It's mostly the same but one difference I have noticed is how the soup is made and the second is on day 4 which I am on ;) that some of the diets say only bananas and milk nothing mentioned about the tuna fish. But my copy of the diet says you can do tuna fish and two bananas or you can do the 8 bananas no tuna. Some of the sites say to do this diet only for a week and then alternate with eating right for a week. Other sites say to use it as long as you feel it is benefitting you. My dad lost 106 pounds in 6 months and was doing ok on it. I think it's ok to substitute some things. The biggest thing is not to eat any bread, sugars, booze, etc. And two key things I found is to drink the water, you must drink lots of water. I drink ice water because I was told your body works to lower it to body temperature which kicks your metabolism into gear. The second key thing is that I take multi-vitamins every day. I think the vitamins are important since this is a drastic change for me. So far I am not dying on it and I even have one of those chocolate flavored protein bars every other day (sort of a small cheat) and I am still doing good ;). I am going to do it until I got sick of it and then maybe take a break and try to do it again.

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